And It Gets Worse...
I keep wondering if I can possibly feel worse than I currently do, and sure enough, it was possible. My best friend from high school called last night asking how late she should be before taking a pregnancy test (she and her husband have been sort-of trying for a couple months now). She was 10 days late so I said it would probably show up. Sure enough, she calls me this morning as happy as can be, asking if I still have any books or maternity clothes from when I was pregnant. Yes, I do, but I was really kind of hoping that I would get to use them again. I am really happy for her, honest I am, but this was the worst possible time to get the news and I am beyond devastated.
Jenny I'll definitely be e-mailing you; I don't know how you managed to make it ten years in the same situation. I am so happy it worked out in the end for you and I really appreciate your comment and all the others too.
Well I would rather not be depressing, so I'm going to go get some work done now. I just keep wondering what can possibly come next. And how on earth I'm going to do her baby shower; I am really happy for her and I want to be a good friend but it is so, so hard right now.
posted by Jill in CA @ 8:46 AM
5 Comments:
Oh Jill, I'm so sorry you're going through this. I can't relate directly but I can empathize with trying to be happy when you're really sad. (Case in point: getting dumped two days after one of your best friends gets engaged and not a week later having to listen to her excitedly talk all about the upcoming wedding.) I wish I could do something to help but I think you really need to sit down with your husband and let him know how you've been feeling.
I'm always here to listen if you need to talk. My email is in my ezboard profile; feel free to write any time.
((Jill)) You can add me to the list of friends who are thinking about you. I am fortunate to have a husband who really wants kids, trouble is my body doesn't want to cooperate. It sucks. I heard of 3 pregnancies over the weekend among friends and acquaintances and all I can do is cry.
((((Jill)))) You are in my thoughts...
((hugs))
I wish I could take some of your pain away Jill. Thinking of you and sending {{{{hugs}}}}.
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